Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Today....

- I listened to my words. And hated what I heard.

- I listened to my tone. And wondered how much more of it young ears could take before they learn to dislike themselves.

- Felt like most days - unproductive.

- I remembered that God made people with a longing for relationship. I am not, as I often think I am, unique in that respect.

- I realized that I seek relationships in other places to the detriment of my relationship with God.

- I thought about how I'd like to pursue my relationship with God just because I want to know him. But I had to admit that I pursue it for what I get out of it.

- I felt alone. And there were people all around me.

Probably not a coincidence, eh?

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8 Comments:

Blogger Mel said...

I related to many of those things . . .

(thanks for stopping by my blog)

Wed May 24, 12:26:00 AM  
Blogger Addie said...

Did you sneak down to my house from Ohio today? As Bubba was known to say "I feel your pain." Only, I actually DO! :-)

Wed May 24, 12:42:00 AM  
Blogger Blessed Beyond Measure said...

"seek relationships in other places to the detrminent of my relationship with God" - you said what we all feel. Thanks for the reminder - oh yeah, the "unproductive part" that hit home too.

Wed May 24, 07:46:00 AM  
Blogger Virginia (Jenny) said...

My pastor once told us, "Cut off any relationship that is negative and bring you down." I have done that and boy did it make a huge difference. I once had to tell a woman to please stop talking bad about everyone and I showed her some scriptures about gossip. She started to cry and went home to pray to God. She said she repented and came back to apologize. I just sat in shock that she was thanking me for showing her the truth. Not only that, but she was so much more happier after that.

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Wed May 24, 12:34:00 PM  
Blogger Robin said...

First of all, I was totally singing that don henley song all night. Secondly, I do understand how you feel. I wish you could meet us this summer!!!

Wed May 24, 01:58:00 PM  
Blogger Shalee said...

Your words hit close to home for me... I really want that honest to goodness relationship with God too, not just the "take care of me will you?" type.

Wed May 24, 05:54:00 PM  
Blogger Brenda said...

You are so not alone. Your thoughts could be/have been my own.

Wed May 24, 10:18:00 PM  
Blogger sarahgrace said...

I am so glad to see that I am not alone in feeling this way...I feel like this so often, and I try to remember to not be so hard on myself. But I think realizing it and admitting it is a good first step in making some positive changes. Good for you! I think I'll follow your lead!

Thu May 25, 02:24:00 AM  

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